Ray Family Update from November 2015

I had hoped to write with definitive answers concerning my recent health issues, but at present I have more possible scenarios than I did prior to my doctor visit. Going to the doctor is somewhat like taking your automobile to the mechanic. You go because your mostly good vehicle has a problem or two only to leave thinking your car has so many problems that it needs to be traded before it explodes in your possession. As of this moment, the problems “could be” stress related or asthma. My doctor, who is a fine Christian man, should be in touch early next week with some results from several blood tests. On a positive note, my fear of blood and needles did not get the best of me this time—in other words, I did not pass out.

Regardless of the final results, one thing is quite clear—I have to make some changes. I feel somewhat like Paul when he ignored multiple warnings on his way to Jerusalem. As much as I want to save the world, I cannot. As much as I want to save every marriage, I cannot. As much as I want to make every person’s problems my own, I cannot. With sincerest intentions, I have allowed myself to fall prey to the monster responsible for taking many out of the ministry or to an early grave. I fear that to continue is to leave my wife to raise our children with no father. If the Lord chooses to take me so be it, but I do not want it to be on account of my own foolishness.

Change is never easy, but at this moment it is paramount. The extent of the changes will depend upon the news I receive next week and the response my health makes to initial changes. I pray that God’s people will be patient with me as I do what I feel necessary to maintain a long-term ministry.